relief-points

ohh, thank god! theres kfc here. pizza hut as well. and mydin not to be forgotten. im going to survive (at least)

the first meeting

the team in KT(HQ) is very efficient eventho we kinda short-handed with manpower. there are only 9 officers (including me) to cover up the whole state where the workloads supposed to be handled by at least 20 over officers (according to the Boss). and i feel grateful that the colleagues and bosses are more or less the same as the previous office. and people work like family rather than mere colleagues and the Boss, in fact, listens to us; problems etc. at least i may coax myself that i’ll be happy on thursdays; if i join the meeting. there are basically FOUR complaints/issues i brought up during my first meeting since my place and KT(HQ) are not of short distance. so i have to utilize my chances wisely. certain things are better left unsaid. so, i would share only two issues instead of all four due to secrecy reason(s).

the first obviously, the basic; my office. my office is not in the same building or even attached to the building where i work. and the best part is, my office is accessible by the officers and staffs at that particular building; the district office. on my first day, it was shocking to know and see how they utilize my office into a store-room by dumping all the sukaneka stuffs, goodies and printing papers. met the Boss there to inform him about my office condition and with a phone call he directed his staffs to clear up the room. he explained that the main switch for the air-conditioning system is located in my office, of which people has to come and out for the air-cond. i (humbly and wisely) suggested for the room to be offered to the in-house officers and if i may, i can swap, but was refused. so, since im a federal staff instead of state, I went to the labour office to ask for an empty room and luckily they have one of which i belive just nice for me (and of course, not accessible by anyone anymore. with keys and locks). i told the story in the meeting, and my Boss said I was fast. and he asked me to get the office details so that he culd help me with a proper letter to be submitted to the labour office director.

the second one was on internet and phone connection. even though the office provides a telephone and a modem, but when I tried to get connected, to no avail. i did call the person-in-charge with the office and technician, but up to this date, progress is not seen. patience is virtue, i belive. but again, being in my post, i cannot do my own research, sending daily reports as needed, or even printing materials for my references, etc. i need all that for my working efficiency. i really hope that people will listen as i don ask for the extras, but the basics. yes, basics. after all I have not so much of time running here and there to get things settle as my workloads are of the utmost attention. it is a shame for an officer not to have a proper office when he was promised things will be settled once he/she steps into the new tenure. but, the promising words seem much sweeter than the reality that I have to face. jauh panggang dari api. but somehow since im expecting the worst and not the best in this remoteness, i just know that i can survive, but it just a matter of time. the ex-boss asked us to give ourselves a period of 2-3months to fully adapt with everything; the culture, people, food, environment; just to share a few. and we shall see how it goes.

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saya yang menurut perintah

so the order was obeyed. and the place is far far in east coast in a small and remote place. The feeling was a mixture of excited, contemplating and everything.

this entry is not about complaining (merely), but sharing the new experience; with those who care (still). expecting the worst instead the best is what i hold when im here. at least this place has kfc and pizzahut outlets. and mydin not to be forgotten. that is so much of relieves. it is pretty shocking to claim a town as bandaraya when my kampung-hometown in northern region has sky-creepers and much more pleasant and well-structured. and this fact almost cost me psychiatric-illness. one thing i note is that, most locals in this new place is not that welcoming and approachable (not because my issues with them, mind you please), but they tend to give the “look” to the outsiders; as if you are the new clown coming to their town. pity me, i know.

my office is no better. my official office is not located in the same building which i work. i know, funny isn’t it? i have to get my stuffs settled at the place I work instead at my very own office since it would be ridiculous for me to commute here and there, just to get things done. the workloads are piling and shocking. things are old and new to me. there are still “shouting” and ass-kicking for super-snail-slow staffs here. Most staffs are very helpful, warm and super-kind. i learnt a lot from them actually for the past few days since no colleague to refer. but the workloads could never be any less meaner to me. im struggling hard to fit in these new phase the soonest possible. and I give myself two to three months time to fully adapt with the culture, people, working-environment and everything. oh yes, the office has no telephone line and internet connection which of course made my days even worst. preparing for the worst, remember?

they say, im talkative. but sadly, no one is here for me. to talk, to share, to everything. usually it is like kacang-putih for me to make new friends with the new crowd. but not here where im the new clown. in this new place, i have no one. seriously no one, no one. no relatives, no friends, not even half-friends in this new place. and the best part is i have no colleague at all. the “colleagues” that available are those in the main office or headquarters in the aforesaid bandaraya which i only met on thursdays for meetings. and just to reach there i have to be on wheels for an hour and quarter. it is to the extent that if i die here, no one will know. or even care. and that’s too exaggerating, no?

being in this new place, there are a lot of things that i need to shift, adjust and adapt with. my weekends are no longer on saturdays and sundays. no more zara and topman. no one-utama or midvalley. or even ikea (mr.meaty-meatballs-with-extra-gravy, me missing you already!). and yes, no black canyon and subway. the only life I have (so far) is my office staffs and a housemate. the ones that i meet almost daily. but as I said earlier, i was expecting the worst and considered myself luckily that I dont kill myself (yet)

i know there are a lot of nice things here. but I just don’t see any (yet) *sigh*

the.imperfect.observer

the delay

i pity myself for being so freaking hectic lately. and luckily and finally i manage to squeeze and exhale some fresh air. promise to myself (and some readers) that this blog surely will be updated the soonest possible! *crossing-fingers* :)

the vibes

as we share the same oxygen to breath (and to lit up fire), i belive the next common thing that we human-being share is the feeling of ungrateful. either we realize it or denying it, it runs in our blood-vein; at least for the normal human-being. and being as an imperfect, i feel the same some times (oke tipu, most of the time really).

the current one would be my biggest step in entering the new phase; the career. seriously i never expect that this beginning in the next chapter of my life will be this freaking cool and superb. the working environment is splendid. people around are very helpful and friendly (even the head of units. no kidding!) and the relationship that binds us more to families as to colleagues. undeniable that the workloads are piling up and some time even on weekends just to comply with the two-weeks KPI kertas siasatan statistic, but we really enjoy what we are doing and yet we still can laugh and share stupid-jokes. stress and tense are everywhere, but how you handle them that matters.

the "ungrateful-ness/complaint" that i have to admit is missing my days back in uni; especially during the final year. true enough that the stress level also was pretty scary, but with those people called friends around (and gurau-senda-tawa-nangis firmmates), everything seems to come in handy tho we complaint quite a lot back then. but thats the beauty of it. the working environment was stressful with endless assigments and back-to-back presentations, breaking-neck-tests etc but we managed to survive throughout the final year after all the sweats and tears. i personally belive that a good working environment is crucial to boost our performances in everything we do. the inner-positive-energy comes subsequent as part and parcel. so, in nutshell, a good working environment c0mes into picture only when you yourself bring that vibes to the environment. and just dont spoil others if you intended to enjoy the rest of your day. chill! :)


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kepada yang masih peduli

terdapat beberapa ralat yang ingin dinyatakan di sini.

pertama sekali mengenai pemilihan bahasa. blogger kebiasaannya memilih bahasa inggeris sebagai medium perantaraan mungkin kerana sudah terbiasa walaupun pada hakikatnya tahap penguasaan kosa kata bahasa inggeris blogger sendiri tidaklah setinggi mana. perkara ini tidak disengajakan dan hanya disedari setelah ditegur oleh adik blogger sendiri. maka, blogger memastikan lebih banyak entry berbahasa kebangsaan pada masa akan datang; itu pun jika masih ada yang mahu terus membaca atau peduli

ralat kedua ialah berkenaan sensasi blog. kepada pembaca atau yang mengikuti blog ini pasti akan bosan (jika tidak sedikit, banyak) memandangkan tiada apa yang sensasi untuk dikongsikan melainkan apa yang dilalui oleh blogger sendiri. tiada drama untuk ditayangkan mahupun pihak untuk dijatuhkan. hanya apa yang dilalui sendiri untuk dikongsi bersama; itu pun jika masih ada yang mahu terus membaca atau peduli.

ketiganya, keterlewatan entry. memandangkan blogger sudah memasuki alam pekerjaan sebagai penjawat awam, masa agak terbatas memandangkan komitmen terhadap bidang baru ini masih memerlukan perhatian yang sewajarnya. kendatipun begitu, ini tidaklah bermakna blog ini akan terbiar bersawang sebegitu saja. entry-entry masih akan diletakkan untuk tatapan dan dikongsi bersama; itu pun jika masih ada yang mahu terus membaca atau peduli.

pemerhati.yang.tidak.sempurna

june 2009

the month of june this year is associated with so many things.

firstly, the fathers day. the person i used to call Abah had left the family for The Creator 's call almost a year. we usually celebrated the day with makan-makan with whole family members plus giving him gift. (the last was an armani parfume). i remember that Abah was the person who taught me how to almost-everything. there are too many memories that he shared and left us with. physically he was much a strict person, but that was merely on the surface. from the inner side, we know that he loves us so much that he will ensure his loves last forever; until the last breath of ours. and the memories remain, still.

secondly, on 24th is Abah’s birthday. he was ‘taken’ away about two weeks after we celebrated his 55th birthday; just weeks after we came back from the family vacation and just few days after abang’s engagement. and apparently, his birth date this year (yesterday) is in conjunction with 1 rejab. The whole family members decided to puasa sunat as arwah always encouraged us to.

thirdly, praised to God for the offer that adek got to pursue his degree in bachelor in mechanical engineering in a southern peninsular ipta and he has to register on june 28th. there were attempts ‘persuading’ him to undergo his degree in uitm, but to no avail. he knows what he wants. so, i let him to decide his path. and on this coming friday, we will be driving to kl to fetch abang and the day after we will heading to johore (yes yes, bleh sight-seeing along the journey)

next, transformers 2: revenge of the fallen. finally its here. and the first show was also on 24th. ive been very keen for this (for God’s sake). very anticipated. finally adek and i went for the midnite show and it was surprising to see (and know) that the showroom (if they call) is fulled and the other room has to be opened. yes, im taking about alorstar and i thought only kl holds the title “the city that never sleeps”. mind you that the next day would be the working day. the movie was totally awesome and trully a jaw-dropping as i expected. and of course just be patient for my next entry.

and, of course my new world; the career. on july 1st ill be furthered my steps into the next level; into the career world. the real world. hopefully everything will run well and smooth and im very anticipated to ‘face’ and ‘taste’ the real world after been struggling through sweats and tears. for five years in shah alam. every ending is the new beginning. quoting from nyda-suster’s post, “It's not over. It's never the end. It's a new phase. It's another chapter. It's still the same book with the same title. The latest edition. Same author, different characters”. and hopefully this would be a great one. insyallah.

my gym song 3

Plain White T's - 1, 2, 3, 4 (i love you)

1,2 - 1 2 3 4
give me more lovin then i've ever had.
make it all better when i'm feelin sad.
tell me that i'm special even when i know i'm not.
make me feel good when i hurt so bad.
barely gettin mad,
im so glad i found you.
i love bein around you.
you make it easy,
as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.)
theres only one thing two do three words four you.
i love you.
(i love you)
theres only one way two say those three words
and that's what i'll do.
i love you.
(i love you)
give me more lovin from the very start.
piece me back together when i fall apart.
tell me things you never even tell your closest friends.
make me feel good when i hurt so bad.
best that i've had.
im so glad that i found you.
i love bein around you.
you make it easy as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.)
theres only one thing two do three words four you.
i love you.
(i love you)
theres only one way two say those three words
and that's what i'll do.
i love you.i love you
(i love you)
you make it easy, its easy as 1234
theres only one thing two do three words four you i love you
(i love you)
theres only one way two say those three words
thats what ill do i love you
(i love you)
i love you i love you.
one two three four i love you.
(iloveyou)
i love you
(i love you)

my gym song 2

Britney Spears - Womaniser

Superstar
Where you from, how's it going?
I know you
Gotta clue, what you’re doing?
You can play brand new to all the other chicks out here
But I know what you are, what you are, baby

Look at you
Gettin' more than a just re-up
Baby, you
Got all the puppets with their strings up
Fakin' like a good one, but I call 'em like I see 'em
I know what you are, what you are, baby

Womanizer, woman-womanizer, you're a womanizer oh
womanizer oh, you are a womanizer baby
you you you are
you you you are
Womanizer, Womanizer, Womanizer

Boy don’t try to front,
uh I know just Just what you are ah ah
Boy don’t try to front, uh uh
uh i know just just what you are ah ah
You got me going
You're oh so charming,
But I can’t do it
Womanizer

Boy don’t try to front,
uh I know just Just what you are ah ah
Boy don’t try to front, uh uh
uh i know just just what you are ah ah
You say I'm crazy
I got your crazy
You're nothing but a womanizer

Daddy-O
You got the swagger of champions
Too bad for you
You just can't find the right companion
I guess when you have one too many, makes it hard
It could be easy who you are, but that's who you are, baby

Lollipop
Must mistake me as a sucker
To think that I
Would be a victim not another
Say it, play it how you wanna
But no way I'm ever gonna fall for you, never you, baby

Womanizer, woman-womanizer, you're a womanizer oh
womanizer oh, you are a womanizer baby
you you you are
you you you are
Womanizer, Womanizer, Womanizer

Boy don’t try to front,
uh I know just Just what you are ah ah
Boy don’t try to front, uh uh
uh i know just just what you are ah ah
You got me, baby
You're oh so charming, honey
But I can’t do it
Womanizer

Boy don’t try to front,
uh I know just Just what you are ah ah
Boy don’t try to front, uh uh
uh i know just just what you are ah ah
You say I'm crazy
I got your crazy
You're nothing but a womanizer

Maybe if we both lived in a different world
It would be all good, and maybe I could be ya girl
But I can't 'cause we don't

Womanizer, woman-womanizer, you're a womanizer oh
womanizer oh, you are a womanizer baby
you you you are
you you you are
Womanizer, womanizer, Womanizer

Boy don’t try to front,
uh I know just Just what you are ah ah
Boy don’t try to front, uh uh
uh i know just just what you are ah ah
You got me going
You're oh so charming,
But I can’t do it
Womanizer

Boy don’t try to front,
uh I know just Just what you are ah ah
Boy don’t try to front, uh uh
uh i know just just what you are ah ah
You say I'm crazy
I got your crazy
You're nothing but a womanizer

Boy don’t try to front,
uh I know just Just what you are ah ah
Boy don’t try to front, uh uh
uh i know just just what you are ah ah
Womanizer, woman-womanizer, you're a womanizer oh
womanizer oh, you are a womanizer baby

my gym song 1

Lady Gaga - Just Dance

  
I've had a little bit too much (much oh ohoo)

All of the people start to rush (Start to rush by)

How does he twist that dance, Can't find my drink oh man

Where are my keys, I lost my phone (phone ohoo)



What's going on on the floor?

I love this record baby

But I can’t see straight anymore

Keep it cool, what's the name of this club?

I can't remember but it's alright, alright



Just dance, gonna be okay

Da-doo-du-um-m

Just dance, spin that record babe

Da-doo-du-um-m

Just dance, gonna be okay

J,J,Just  Dance, dance, dance

Ju-ju-ju-just dance



Wish I could shut my playboy mouth (shut it right up)

How'd I turn my shirt inside out? (Inside out right)

Control your poison babe, Roses with thorns they say

And we're all gettin' hosed tonight



What's going on on the floor?

I love this record baby

But I can’t see straight anymore

Keep it cool, what's the name of this club?

I can't remember but it's alright, alright



Just dance, gonna be okay

Da-doo-du-um-m

Just dance, spin that record babe

Da-doo-du-um-m

Just dance, gonna be okay

J,J, Just Dance, dance, dance

Ju-ju-ju-just dance



When I come through on the dance floor checkin' out that catalogue

Can’t believe my eyes so many women without a flaw

And I ain’t gonn' give it up, steady tryna pick it up like the car

I'mma hit it, I'mma hit it and flex until the 'til done until tomorr' yeah



Show me I can see that you got so much energy

The way you twirling up them hips round and round

There’s no reason, I know why you can’t leave here with me

In the meantime stand, let me watch you break it down



Just dance, gonna be okay

Da-doo-du-um-m

Just dance, spin that record babe

Da-doo-du-um-m

Just dance, gonna be okay

J,J just Dance, dance, dance

Ju-ju-ju-just dance



I’m psychotic sync hypnotic

I got my blue burners and phonic

I’m psychotic sync hypnotic

I got my brand electronic

I’m psychotic sync hypnotic

I got my blue burners and phonic

I’m psychotic sync hypnotic

I got my brand electronic



Go, use your muscle comin' out work it hustle

I got it, just stay close enough to get it

Go slow, drive it, clean it

Like so clean it’s been molesto

I got it, and your popped coll'



Just dance, gonna be okay

Da-doo-du-um-m

Just dance, spin that record babe

Da-doo-du-um-m

Just dance, gonna be okay

J,J, Just Dance, dance, dance

Ju-ju-ju-just dance